these are a few of the poems i recieved so, i'm putting them on my page

Poisoned By Life (by Nick Woods)

While I lay awake at night 
I struggle with the days long fight
I wonder why I try at all 
Cause when I do I always fall

Although I feel the poison flowing 
I still keep my body going
I'm not sure what is to come
Because my brain has just gone numb

I've tied to change the way it seems
But then I'd see it in my dreams
I do not try it any more 
My mind has closed its only door

I can't leave my comfy bed 
With all the poisons in my head
I'll just grab my big warm blanket 
sleep will come and I will thank it

On my pillow lay my head down 
Into sleep I'll let my mind drown
I won't wake up any more 
My mind has closed its only door

        he couldn't believe how easy it was
        he put the gun into his face
        bang
        (so much blood for such a tiny little hole)
        problems do have solutions, you know
        a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash
        everything's blue
        everything's blue in this world
        the deepest shade of mushroom blue
        all fuzzy
        spilling out of my head

no title, by me

why do my ideas always backfire
why am i the only one
why should i care
why do i still think about it
wish i had my mind straight
can't get my head up right

always looking down
falling to the ground
faster and faster day by day
your mind is messed up again by everyone else's opinions
do you hear them
are you listening
why take it personally
make up your mind
take your time

did i mess up again
is it my fault this time again
what did i do
why am i here
you never loved me
you never cared

why should i take my time to still love you
am i that far down that i can't get up again
why did you let me fall
you cant help me up
you only bring me down
take actions over words

hear my warning
listen to what my eyes are saying
feel the way i felt for you
now go and use it on him
stab me again, oh it feels so nice
pull the trigger, no pull it twice
i want you to feel my pain

out of mind and out of sight
this is only the start of another fight
we can't bring back what we have lost
i fucked up again and still wanted you back
why did you take me back
it was a mistake at the start
dont take it to heart
maybe i never cared
never wanted to love you

you are hell, and pain, and all that i feel
use me again, one last time, 
brain cancer has taken over
now you can't decide
make up my mind for me
lie to me and tell me your version of the truth

steal me, never let my heart go
shoot me, let me bleed for you
kill me, i want to die for you
leave me, i will only follow you
yell at me, and i will speak my mind
look at me, i will look away
touch me, and i will cringe

only time i feel good is when im low
i dont feel alive
always gonna strive
falling down head to the ground
never gonna get up

maybe you will know me
and maybe i will deny you
call me later down the road
and i will hang up
sit a while and talk
get up and go away
wonder 
worry til you get sick in your head 
from the thoughts that wander through
think of me

wonder where i went
why i'm not here when you want me to be
you never wanted me around
this time i wont come back
not to you at least
when they are all gone and i am too
then what
what will you do without it

just like pink floyd i have become comfortably numb
so numb you cannot reach me anymore
the thoughts are flowing like blood from my veins
so i keep on writing til i die
come along it's time for your visit
welcome to my everlasting insanity
after all, you caused it
no way to stop it but why not
i am not in control anymore

out of mind and out of sight im gone 
just like the thoughts of you 
that were forever in my head
hitting the ground 
bleeding out my thoughts all over the street
no one to clean them up
for they don't know what they hold
and they will always wonder!

                
such a self diluted little boy
alwalys trying to make things right
and you know in your mind nothing ever changes
so why scream for help.
why run away when your problems are always so far ahead of you
you sit and cry and wonder if things will ever be the same
the life you had you threw away for a good time
the snort their lines til they see god
but do you really want a life like that?
your so innocent never doing anything wrong
can you see the pictures tattoed in your eyelids
her face always seems to sink you lower
but you fall again
because you know you love her
WHY?
why do we ever try, it just gets us further in
sink into your lowest sins
listen to your radio and think of the times
never gonna learn
am i the only reason i can't ever do anything
giving up is what i do best
so why not now, 
just because i sleep all day, and never go out doesnt make me a dull person
it feels like a fantasy 
all the thoughts you dreamed of crumbled before you
never for you to reach, just close enough to be touched and pulled away from you
where did my life go, why am i the only one thinking this
so many questions i want the answers to, 
but im afraid of the answers i will recieve
staying awake, and trying not to dream
why is it whenever you are actually happy, it falls to shit
when you reach your peak, it falls apart all around you
no one seems to care, maybe it's just a bad day
well most of us have just a bad life
it may be all fun when you do it, and when you think of it
it's not cause they arent there to enjoy it with you
im falling apart, stitch me back up, and send me away
burn me, excuse me, yell at me, abuse me
as long as there is contact i'll be ok
but it's gone, and i tried once again
and i gave up.
not all suicides are a bad thing, 
let them do what they like,
maybe it's better, they will be happy
break them while they are young
that way they will learn not to be what you have turned out
only wish what you really want. cause after you have it, you won't want it anymore
maybe i should wish we were dead, and stuck in our own personal haven, 
that way you won't be with him, and i can be forever
so beautiful and so painful to see
i dont want to get inside your head,
but you've made it under my skin
crawling through my veins until i can't take it anymore